Troy Kelly

Thanks Anthony

It’s really strange to me how long it takes some people to show their true selves.

A friend of ours who I liked quite a bit in the last few weeks has turned into what I can only describe as an insecure monster.

The really sad thing about all this is that he is a really nice guy - but because he is insecure about himself, and will not be honest about who he is and is just so worried about what others think about him - now he has kinda snapped and it really isn’t very pleasant.

He is going away for a while, which I hope will help him “find himself” so to speak, but it’s just sad to see that kinda thing happen to somebody.

Well, The first part of the weekend was spent making a training video for work. It was great - huge thanks to Adam, Justin, Debbie and Keni for all your help and acting talent Anyway - it pretty much all went well - as soon as we have played it for the staff meeting- I will put it up here for those of you that really wanna see it.
Editing was done with Final Cut Pro and Motion, holy crap that software makes life easy - Thank-you Apple!

Normally I calm down about shit but it seems yesterdays post is still at the foremost of my thoughts (does that make sense??)

Anyway - I am still really pissed off about what is going on here, and some meetings I had yesterday haven’t helped that.

Anyway - enough of that… I am thinking I will raise my concerns in the staff meeting on Tuesday - should be interesting.

So today I worked from 7.30 am to 9.15 pm, with about a 15minute break for lunch. Normally - I wouldn’t care so much - but today I am a little upset because these really long days seem to have become standard operating procedure.

Everybody is working so hard and working such long days at the moment, it’s not just me - but I can really see it taking its toll on everybody, and by default - eventually it will have to effect the company.

The only reason I am really upset about this is that we have been asking for more resources, first the response was do a detailed description of why you need them, and what they would need to do - so we did, right down to an hour by hour planner of their week over a three month period.

Then we were told that was fine, but it was just too expensive to hire somebody new. So I got somebody not so expensive, and showed that by moving a lot of the work that contractors do to this person, we would cover their cost in about six months.

Then it was another excuse (sorry, I gave up remembering here - it has just gotten so lame)…

But it culminated today in me getting into trouble for not prioritising my work correctly and getting side-tracked by trivial things.

Unfortunatly, the trivial things side tracking me - are critical to the business also. It would be great if I could palm it off to somebody else and not worry about it - but there just isn’t any body to do that to - we are all under a great deal of workload and stress at the moment.

Anyway - what I am trying to say here is that I feel I am really being disrespected. I work fucking hard for these guys, I feel that I have pretty much jumped through every reasonable hoop that they want me to regarding an additional staffer, and now they are just being stupid about it.

Every day I am getting closer and closer to showing managment exactly where they can shove my job, their company, and anything else I feel fit at the time.

I think there are some huge risks that we are taking by leaving some teams dangerously under-staffed. At some point in time, in the very near future, somebody is going to miss something because they are dealing with 4 other vitally important things - and right then, the band-aid’s will fall off - and we will end up with a serious issue on our hands, that may or may not be able to be resolved.

Another amazingly annoying thing about all this is that we currently have a head count freeze. We can’t add staff because the board, in it’s inifinate wisdom, say so. But, we just hired two ex-politicians Wayne Goss and Neville Wran.

I am sure Wayne and Neville are not doing it for love, and I am equally sure that the money / shares we are paying these guys would more then cover the nescasary additional staff that we need.

We have no problem with the sales pipeline, we don’t need more contacts (at the moment) to get bigger deals - we can’t look after the stuff we have now.

Fuck, I hope somebody wakes up to themselvs soon!

Yeah, I know I haven’t written in here in ages, but it’s not really my fault
I have been so buggery busy - it has just been crazy - I even had a little whinge to my boss about it. Anyway - all is getting better now.

We are trying to put together a show - I wanna spend some time on it this week and get things sorted, just a small thing, 300 seat theatre somewhere for a week. Phillip has a script, and I have to start going through it - so it is all a little bit exciting.

I think this will help keep me happy and excited the next couple of months - so it is a good thing (at the moment).

Other then that - I haven’t really been up to much. Went to Hervey Bay with Kenny, Matt and Joshua for Matt’s birthday & going away. I love Kenny & Matt, but I can’t go on another trip with them. Way too much fighting, I think I was just as stressed at the end of that weekend as I am @ work.

But, I suppose it was good to get away. Brett got some unhindered game play time *grin*.

Recently MSN Messenger and the associated services have been offline a lot. Constantly coming up with the image that is on this page. I suppose this is just testiment to how good microsoft based hosting is.